Below are the 7 most recent journal entries recorded in angel_luvsu4u's LiveJournal:

Saturday, May 12th, 2007
5:22 pm	Happy happy Hey!!! Things are going VERY well. Both, David and I had job interviews on Thursday and BOTH got offered jobs!! he will be working for a customer support company and I will be the head teacher in a daycare classroom. I am sooooooo excited, but scared also because I have never been in charge of 13 kids on my own. But I think it will be a HUGE step for me and I hope I am prepared for it. If i fail, well then I know i shouldn't be a teacher with 25 or so in public schools.  AND, I got accepted to the univerestiy of tennessee in Chattanooga!! They are sooooooo cool. They gave me a huge thing that said what credits transfered and then the list of classes I still need to take. If I do well in all of my classes, then I will graduate in about 4 semesters. That includes summer. ; ) YAY!!!!! I hope I can do it.  As far as the house goes, we have the hall done, dinning area done, and tomorrow the living room will be done. My mom sent david and I a house warming gift which was decorative/painting house books and $1000. We were sooooooo excited because we got to get the dinning room table that we LOVE and cool things to put on our new couch (pillows from Pier 1) and placemats, cool photo frames and towels, really fun stuff. :) Well got to get going. we are going shopping and david wants to go before it gets dark because it is raining really hard! Talk soon!   (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, October 31st, 2006
4:21 pm	Last day of October! HAPPY HALLOWEEN TO EVERYONE! Okay, so my weekend was FANTASTIC! I had tons of fun in Durango, thank you Heather. All of the friends that I met were very very sweet, epecially Ian. :) We will have to do it again soon. So once I got back from Durango, I had lunch with David:) and Kevin. It was kind of werid because Kevin seemed really mad. I brushed it off, b/c it is Kevin and at that point didn't really care. So have a good lunch. Ran into Rachel which was really cool and then back to my room for studying. Kevin starts talking to me and goes on and on about how horrible it is that I saw Jesse in Durango. Then says he isnt going to talk about it anymore unless I go over there. Sooo, I go over. He is soooo upset that I saw Jesse he is almost crying in frustration. He talks about how Jesse isnt worth it and it makes everyone around me hurt because they see the emotions that Jesse puts me through and how he makes me feel (mainly frustrated and sad). I know Jesse doesn't do anything for me other then make me feel good b/c I like helping people and he needs it. But it also made me realize that Jesse will always need help b/c he has never learned to help himself.Therefor I am just a crutch. I know this, being David and I have talked about it a million trillon gadillion times in the last two years. So I dont really know what to do. I know I wouldn't be hurt at all if I never talked to Jesse being he isnt a big part of it anyway. What I don't understand is why it hurts Kevin and he says it hurts everyone else also. The only thing I would feel bad about is if he calls and I never answer again. I am not talking to him because why? Because he cant handle his own problems? That is not a reason to not talk to someone. Yeah, he says stupid stuff and makes me feel bad. Kevin has given me that same feelings sometimes and he knows it. Does that mean I stop talking to Kevin too? No! Kevin bring smiles and much happiness, and Jesse brings happiness in the way where I feel needed b/c I give him advice, but he also brings anger which no one else can do. I DONT UNDERSTAND WHAT TO DO! If anything. Do I stop talking to Jesse? Do I delete his number? Do I just talk to him when he calls? (7 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, July 9th, 2006
7:27 pm	Sunday night. What to do tonight. I should be doing college of education stuff. But I am not. I will probably clean my fish bowl so Osiris has clean water, then dye my hair. Then go to bed. I am bored and just want this weekend to be over. (Comment on this)
Saturday, May 27th, 2006
9:25 pm	January 26th - May 26th Was the best relationship that I will ever have. I loved him with all of my heart and gave him almost all of it. Now it is over... and it couldn't feel more wrong. The whole world sucks. Why keep going when the one thing that kept you happy in this world, is gone? And you can't stop crying!! (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, May 4th, 2006
4:07 pm	What has been going on. So, I know I haven't done anything on here in forever. For that, I am sorry. I am usually over at Kevin's and livejournal for some reason is dumb over there. This week is just getting ready to move and finals. I am going to try and get all the stuff I do not need, put it in a box, and mail it to my dad. It took him the 3 years I have been here to realize that my mom made me take all of my stuff to college. Not just the clothes and needed things. So dad said he would put it in the attic at his house. :) So I will put that all in box, send it home, then put everything else in boxes and take it to my room for the summer! I hope to live in the SRC's next semester so I can stay here for New Years and after this coming year. It will be fun. I dont want to be home doing nothing, I never do much the last 2 weeks at home anyway. Kevin and I are doing good. We have gotten past the cute puppy love stage which is good. It was also funny, I was looking through his notebook that he takes to class and writes Erin in, my name was in it and so I skipped over what it said. Then ofcourse I was really curious and asked if I could read it. He said "Sure, I have already told you what was in it when you confronted me about seeing your name." So I read it and it was like 3 weeks into our relationship and he was worried about moving too fast (like all boys) and it was cute. Side note: Liz, nothing was about you. We have been ofcourse sassy (as he calls it) with each other because of finals stress on his part. I just know it isnt that big of a deal when you have done this 8 trillion times. So that is the only thing major that gets between us right now. Other then I have learned I am a horrible girlfriend. But I am working on that (and a whole other story). School, boyfriend, umm...I will be in New Mexico for the summer. I will be going home for a week or two, then will also be taking a bus one weekend up to Durango to visit my friend Heather, and ofcourse who ever else wants to see me. I am also going to get the packet for college of education done thisi summer too. I am so behind in switching schools and in graduation it isn't even funny. ;P It wil get done though. Well there is that. Will update more now I promise. I need to give my boyfriend space. It is my trying to fix me being such a horrible girlfriend. We will see how it goes. Talk soon! (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, March 3rd, 2006
3:32 pm	Hello moto. Okay things that are going on. School...one more week, then there is spring break. In the last week I know I have a hip hop final, which Rachel and I are hopfully getting together and 'studying' for. Which really just means hanging out and having fun, maybe making a fool of ourself as we practice. It's okay though, we have fun. We also need to do well on this midterm. Not too worried about it though. I am sure I have other tests...I just didnt go to clss this week aat all (other then one dance class) becuase of allergies. I have wanted to rip my eyes out and have someone take care of them for me because obviously I cant! Spring break, I am going to Atlanta with my friend david. This is going to be soooooooooooo fun (minus I will miss my boyfriend soooooo much.) But I have David so I think I will be okay. Think being the key word there. Eeeeks. We are going to get his turtle that is at his mom's house in Alabama, then going to Atlanta, Georgia to go to the aquarium and maybe out to a club to dance. It will be awesome!!! I haven't talked to my mom in sooooo long. I feel really bad. I will probably call her tonight while at David's. She sent me a run for my room. I love it! I talk to my dad the other day. He wants me to ask mom about splitting the cost of spring break. It wont be that much but might s well try in his eyes. But I feel bad calling mom to ask her for money when I haven't talked to her in a very long time. :( Anyway...things are going well here. I feel needed as a friend, which is always good. I dont want david to have to go to the hospital, but it gives me someone to take care of which I live for. So it works. :) My boy is awesome as always....caall for hospital...got to go get david. talk laters~ (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, November 7th, 2005
11:27 pm	Lessons "Because Of You" Sung by Kelly Clarkson I will not make the same mistakes that you did I will not let myself Cause my heart so much misery I will not break the way you did, You fell so hard I've learned the hard way To never let it get that far Because of you I never stray too far from the sidewalk Because of you I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt Because of you I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me Because of you I am afraid I lose my way And it's not too long before you point it out I cannot cry Because I know that's weakness in your eyes I'm forced to fake A smile, a laugh everyday of my life My heart can't possibly break When it wasn't even whole to start with Because of you I never stray too far from the sidewalk Because of you I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt Because of you I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me Because of you I am afraid I watched you die I heard you cry every night in your sleep I was so young You should have known better than to lean on me You never thought of anyone else You just saw your pain And now I cry in the middle of the night For the same damn thing Because of you I never stray too far from the sidewalk Because of you I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt Because of you I try my hardest just to forget everything Because of you I don't know how to let anyone else in Because of you I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty Because of you I am afraid Just after some things...how I feel now when looking back. (Comment on this)